The energy of wanting anything, even enlightenment, is too heavy. If the mind can still describe or know what it wants, it means that it is still too entangled in meaning and purpose. If it is still anticipating or waiting, still eager and anxious, it is still in the grips of time. It is still in story. An awake mind is essentially absent. It has come to a point where it does not any longer know of any reasons for its emptiness. And does not carry any fear of its absence. It’s disappearance is unexpected, even to itself. Especially to itself.