Wholeness cannot be perceived as such. All that can ever be perceived is a resistance to wholeness. In fact all human perception and suffering and constant thinking is how the resistance energy does its dance. I suppose through grace there is a sudden slowing down of this energy and wholeness shines. It is not perceived as such through words and thinking but it has an immediate fullness to it. The same way as the sun and all of nature shines without any thought or expectation or active focused perception.